How to Rise Above it All

My baby brother reached out Sept 2021 This was my answer to him about him coming back into my life. To which he took time to answer me with this... but to me, my mother operating like Windows 94 is still not an excuse. Despite a low IQ, she still knew right from wrong. Her parents were foster parents. It's not like she had nowhere to go. I think he talks a lot of shit to justify using drugs. It's true there are studies out there, all done in controlled clinical trials. I wouldn't suggest trying psychedelics without being under the clinical supervision of a licensed care provider. My brother choses to live under the guise of drugs and alcohol. He sounds more and more like my father every time he reaches out; the world's finest shit talker!  My meds are all prescribed. I rarely drink alcohol. I'm doing the work to get better and heal. I can't have this kind of crap in my life. I just can't.  ...

Why write my story?  In my mid thirties I began reliving many unprocessed traumatic memories from my childhood. My life unraveled before my eyes. I was vomiting daily. I lost 100lbs in less than a year without even trying. I couldn't understand how it was that I had "forgotten" all of these memories as they started coming up piece by piece. Some had me trembling in tears. Others left my limbs covered in bruises. Some left me dry heaving. Each memory fragment gave me a piece of the bigger picture to understanding why I am the way I am. Mostly I learned that the mental impact a situation has on a person is tied with their ability to understand and comprehend what is going on around them. I honestly didn't understand what was happening. Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off not knowing and other times I am glad I know as it helped me adjust my life towards living in a more supportive and positive environment.    I am writing about my experiences for me. I need ...