4. My Recovery Plan - Healing after Post Op Complications

Nov30, 2022

Dec 1, 2022
Tonight I'm thinking about everything that went wrong on November 17th, during the second surgery.

I'm usually fine facing things alone but after the second surgery, when my legs were moving involuntarily, I was looking around the room for a familiar face. My legs were trembling hard. They ran a CT scan. 
I had a bad C-PTSD episode coming out of anesthesia. I was alone watching my team try to figure out what was happening. I was unable to speak.
It's been on my mind a lot these past few days.
I couldn't sit up because I was being held down. My body was trembling fiercely as my legs jerked. I was being held down in ice water. I could hear the noises I was making. Gurgling noises almost. I rode it out as quietly as I could like a wave in the ocean until it dissipated and I returned to reality.

Thankfully the third surgery went much better. I'm hoping and praying it will be the same next time. I just hope and pray it doesn't happen again like that. It was pretty terrifying. 
I was alone.

Dec 2, 2022

Now I can see why my neck hurt really bad the first few nights. 
The surgical pain is almost gone.

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