6. My Recovery Plan - Healing January 2023

Jan 27, 2023

I'm hungry. 
My jaw hurts and my teeth don't line up making it hard to chew.
It just feels like a lot of work when I try to chew. My jaw gets fatigued easily. The muscles feel weak.
It takes about 3 weeks for my jaw to get back to normal.
It feels like I took a solid punch to the face every time I go through this. 
The difference this time is that when my teeth line up again, I get new teeth made. I prepaid for it all. I planned ahead for it. 
When I can smile again, it's going to be a beautiful day!

Jan 28, 2023
I look pretty good considering how I feel. There is still a considerable amount of swelling.
I feel like crap today.
Nauseous.
My stomach hurts.
I still feel like I took a good solid punch to the face.
I can feel the areas where my head was pinned; those spots feel tender to the touch.

February 1, 2023
The coolest thing happened to me today. It's one of those little things that turns out to be a big thing...
I was outside in the parking lot at the grocery store. There was that little fine snow blowing around from the wind. I caught some of that with my face.
I had forgotten how the snow tickles your cheek as it melts. 
For the first time in 30 years I just felt the cold touch my face without pain. 
It was incredible! 
It tickles! 
The snow melting against my skin tickles my cheeks again!
I stood in the parking lot in tears letting myself experience it for the first time all over again. 
I remembered how I used to love the snow hitting my cheeks as a child. I would stand, all dressed up in the cold, with my tongue out trying to catch snow flakes as I walked the perimeter of the fence watching my classmates play.

I welcome more of that coming back into my life.


February 3, 2023
I am experiencing extra pain.
It's like an electric jolts between my jaw and my right temple.
I'm really not feeling good.
I'm missing classes and falling behind with my school work.
This shit hurts more than I can explain.
It hurts so much that it turns my stomach. 


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